Prayer for the LORD's Blessing upon the Sanctuary.
"Remember, O LORD, on David's behalf, All his affliction; How he swore to the LORD and vowed to the Mighty One of Jacob, "Surely I will not enter my house, Nor lie on my bed; I will not give sleep to my eyes Or slumber to my eyelids, Until I find a place for the LORD, A dwelling place for the Mighty One of Jacob." Behold, we heard of it in Ephrathah, We found it in the field of Jaar. Let us go into His dwelling place; Let us worship at His footstool. Arise, O LORD, to Your resting place, You and the ark of Your strength. Let Your priests be clothed with righteousness, And let Your godly ones sing for joy. For the sake of David Your servant, Do not turn away the face of Your anointed. The LORD has sworn to David A truth from which He will not turn back; "Of the fruit of your body I will set upon your throne. "If your sons will keep My covenant And My testimony which I will teach them, Their sons also shall sit upon your throne forever." For the LORD has chosen Zion; He has desired it for His habitation. "This is My resting place forever; Here I will dwell, for I have desired it. "I will abundantly bless her provision; I will satisfy her needy with bread. "Her priests also I will clothe with salvation, And her godly ones will sing aloud for joy. "There I will cause the horn of David to spring forth; I have prepared a lamp for Mine anointed. "His enemies I will clothe with shame But upon himself his crown shall shine."
I had to incorporate this chapter with Ecclesiastes 3:11, "He has made everything appropriate in its time. He has also set eternity in their heart, yet so that man will not find out the work which God has done from the beginning even to the end."
What I think right now is that, God had truly made everything appropriate in his time even my failure. I usually read Bible every morning, but today was exception. I was frustrated because of it and worried that I could not do the things perfectly as I planned. This kind of incident happened several times in my life where I just cannot do the things the way I planned. I start to get anxious and terrified that my life is over or miserable. Yes, there is this feeling of failure.
During this time of failure, I start to reflect myself and ask God for what I have done wrong so that "my plan" would not go in the way that I want. Immediately after the prayer, I realize what I did wrong. Indeed, I was trying to live or control my life according to my plan and standards rather than God's plan. I became the boss of my life rather than him. I lift up myself and begin to worship his name again. I learned the same usual lesson.
My God has a plan for me, and there is no way for me to know it, but I know that it is a plan of adventure and uncertainty. There is nothing I can do except depend on him, which I will be living not by my strength but his strength. The life of faith really challenges me to live differently than the life that I want (security, comfort, no pain, no hardship, no trials).
It is time for me to grow up to truly accept the fact that God wants me to be obedient to him and live with him rather than having Jonah's complex to run away from him. As I was originally planned to take a nap, instead, I took a different path. I chose to read Bible and devote this time for prayer and reflection. The result? I have the sense of peace right now as I am resting under my heavenly father's shadow. He has taken away my troubles and worries and tells me that he cares for me.
The failures are not sign to tell me that I am miserable person but rather they are the sign of opening new open doors. I learned another lesson from failures hoping that it will lead me to light.
- Failures do not define who you are
- God has a plan for you at appropriate time (do not get anxious and worried)
- Open the new doors!
- My Lord is my dwelling place
- Obedient (get away from Jonah's complex (but either way, God will lead me to this plan))
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