Voyage

Dear Lord, I am living in presence of you. I am thankful for who you are. I cannot imagine how my life would have been without you. I come closer to you. I am breaking out of this world and trying to live in a peace. Practicing your presence is not easy. I am tempted to do something else. I cannot do this tomorrow. The Bible tells me that you give peace and life to those who seek and equip your spirit. What do you mean by making difference between living with spirit and flesh? What I know is that you tell me to get out of excessive planning and scheduling. Was I forgetting your presence through such things? If I did, I am sorry. But Lord, I am overwhelmed with the workloads. I don't know what do to with them. I cannot handle them. I don't have the ability to get through this. I do not like reading and writing. I am barely on the level where I could follow reading, and I don't remember anything from what I have read. F()ck. There are people out there...

Dear Lord, Thank you for giving today, but there is too much noise outside!  Who is this person turning his sound device's volume so high? Why did he have to do this? Although his song choice is not so  bad, I had enough of hearing his song for 30 minute. I can still hear it with  my window is closed. Are you trying to test my patience? If then, forgive me for my impatience. There is no way I will be able to understand your way of ruling in this world. You are not mismanaging anything. From my limited perspective, all I can do is to trust your sovereignty.  Thank you for letting me to read Psalms chapter one again. I wish to be a tree or vine that stays and grows next to you. As I spend my day meditating your words, you pour out joy into my life. Your presence stays with me, and I find peace. Indeed, every goods come from you. What I mean to live a life is to not get away with pain and suffering, but it is to live joyfully in mist of troubl...

  [Inkscape & Photoshop] cutting image...! Learned!!! trying to match the images done...? adding Hibiscus almost done....! yeah~~!  final...! I hope its approved.... This is probably my final artistic work until the end of semester (sad) Life is getting chaotic with  homework, projects, and essays.... I already feel burned out.  Worried about writing 20 pages of Political Science 319 paper.  I pray...! Psalms 31: 14: " But as for me, I trust in You, O Lord, I say, "You are my God."

For Christ has been raised from the dead, he has won victory over death. Through his blood, we are forgiven. Let us give thanks to the Lord. I will give thanks to the Lord, because your presence brightens my day. I take this time to think about you. I know that you were with me the whole time. But as I try to remember my day, I did not find much interesting things. It was one of those routine days, but here is what I remember. I woke up today early to study for the business test. I spent about two and half hours for the test. I had to take few breaks, because I was not only losing concentration but also suffering from boils on my butt. Boil swells easily on my butt especially if I spend long time on chair. I felt like I need to buy a really good chair seat. I could not understand most of the things professor Westra lectured. He gave a lecture about monetary policy, and he said states have to find stability in their  monetary  system and take various strat...

I lived a day thinking about God today. There were three verses that I tried to remember whole day. They were Col. 3:23, John 15:5, Psalms 105:4. John 15:5 stood out the most. I think there is nothing I can do without Jesus. Not to make excuse about my lack of ability in academic career, I took the verse from the Bible. In Korean Bible, it says, "너희는 나를 떠나서는 아무것도 할 수 없다." I think what Jesus meant by nothing can be done does not mean when you fail at something, it means that Jesus was not with you. I think it means that if we do something that does not glorify him, we are misplaced and eventually realize that we cannot essentially achieve anything. Though temporarily, we can attain lots of stuff such as wealth, but when we look at it in the long-term, everything disappears. Only thing that remains is Jesus's Love. I just remembered an article about Donald Trump giving speech to high school students. He was saying that having happy family is worth more than wealt...

(reading Bible) FINALLY finished reading Psalm for the first time in my life!!! (Hyper Life Drifter) finished first boss hahaha (Just Mercy) read first chapter / half way in 2nd chapter (Jesus Calling) Daily devotion book (on April 10st!) (The 5 Love Languages) I'm not married but interested on third chapter (Aquarium Documentary in Korea) So cooollll (newspaper) read JungAngIlBo / WallStreetJournal found few newspaper interesting this week. Disappointed with this week's opinion and column :( (homework / group project) asdjkljklfasjdkqqwegzd (walking - this photo has nothing to do with me) more than 4 hours in snowy and cold Michigan self torture (Jang Bum June 2nd Album) Interesting artist. Do not like all of his songs, but some of them are really nice (kakaotalk) celebrating Dad's birthday sorry dad, I'll remember next time (kakaotalk) my kanka(brother in Turkish...

Jeremiah 17:7, "Blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD And whose trust is the LORD." Romans 8:28, "And we know that God causes all things to work together for good to those who love God, to those who are called according to His purpose." Psalm 40:2, "He brought me up out of the pit of destruction, out of the miry clay, And He set my feet upon a rock making my footsteps firm." 1 Peter 2:9, "But you are A CHOSEN RACE, A royal PRIESTHOOD, A HOLY NATION, A PEOPLE FOR God's OWN POSSESSION, so that you may proclaim the excellencies of Him who has called you out of darkness into His marvelous light." Thank you LORD. I may have walked to the path where I regretted if you did not help me. Thank you for letting me to trust you and courageously walk to where my heart wanted. I found myself at guilty feeling after waking up late. I was already 30 minute late to the church. I was hesitating whether I should still go to church. I sort of knew...

Romans 8:38-39, "For I am convinced that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor things present, nor things to come, nor powers, nor height, nor depth, nor any other created thing, will be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord." Exodus 33:14, "My presence shall go with you, and I will give you rest." 1 John 1:7,9, "But if we walk in the Light as He Himself is in the Light, we have fellowship with one another, and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all sin. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness." The word for today: do not be deceived by Satan. Do not worry. Depending on emotion with Lord is sometimes dangerous, but (you) remember the Bible verses about God's love and forgiveness. And he will always forgive you no matter what. Do not be a fool like me to write such things below. Remember that Satan...

Calvin College is a snowtown again. If I am recalling correctly, I learned in my high school that poets used to connect themselves with snow a lot. I remember reading a specific poem that starts with a narrator walking on the snow with a girl who seems to be his daughter. The narrator soon mourns because it was actually a portion his memory of the girl who is now dead. The time passes, and the narrator is out on the snow walking with a girl again. This time, the girl asks to the narrator, "where does the snow come from?" I cannot precisely remember how he answered, but I think he answered that God created the snow and sent it down to earth. We discussed in the class that God takes huge part in the poem and found a theme of snow that symbolized a bandage that covered the wound of the narrator. Although snow may be his reflection of pain and sorrow, God sent snow again, but the narrator was thankful for the snow while he was remembering his lost daughter. And he was stand...